Wonder Why Lyrics

Wondering why Every night I just be wondering why When it finally comes time for me to leave my body, where is it that I'm gonna fly? Too many questions, I need an answer Like, why do so many people keep dying from cancer? Why is it that we take living for granted? Just something I'm asking Trying to believe everything is for a reason While fighting these demons I know that life isn't fair, nor is it even But still that doesn't ever help it get easier Going through it, you will feel like a meteor Crashed right into your world, hit your heart 4AM, sitting up in the dark 5AM, now I'm waiting for the sun Wonder if this is who I'm meant to become Where do I start? I could go on for ages My life is a book and I'm writing the pages I'm learning that this shit is all about stages Out in the sea and the ocean just rages But me, I always stay afloat, I can never be sunken I weather the storm, keep moving Searching for something, I wasn't sure what Until I looked in the mirror and saw what I'm pursuing This is the life that I chose Used to be knocking with all the doors closed Always had style with minimal clothes Now they say I'm coming up, I suppose Me, I'm a rose One that grew from the concrete, we arose Me and my bros Freeing our souls Lately I've been feeling way more cold hearted from dealing with hoes Right now, I've got a whole lot on my mind If I had it my way, I'd go back in time Revisit the past Memories I'm missing Things I would do different But this is the fact Recognizing the present is a gift And overstanding that these haters ain't shit Let them know that I'm snapping off the rip World is a puzzle, got to make it fit Life never stops and it often is strange Accepting the only constant is change Watching the bigger picture rearrange All about balance, give and take exchange This is how I feel, I'm gonna end it by saying I'm sick of just having my heart getting played with Don't know how to be anything but blatant I'm overstanding that life is what you make it Well I wonder Lately I've been having way more epiphanies Orchestrating my life like it's a symphony Really, I don't have no friends in this industry All just acquaintances, they're not a friend to me Wonder why the universe has been testing me Wonder why I'm manifesting my destiny I already know the answer, it's evident June 11, a Gemini was heaven sent I'm here for a greater purpose Give them the vibe with the flow, how I word this Embracing the pain even when the shit is hurting Flip it into a positive for certain I've been going through it I've been getting to it Slightly depressed and nobody even knew it Highly stressed out, but I'm good now, I'm moving Forward always progressing, what I'm doing Got to remember Bring it back to center Grinding every January through December Talking about who got it, I'm the main contender Had many influences, but not a mentor I'm just a different breed I did it differently Built myself up, equipped myself with different keys All significantly They can not get to me I am an outlier, gifted, an entity Meant for the sensory Learn the lessons and convey them back to the people and especially Those who feel like they're in need of some empathy No longer wonder why blessings are sent to me Questions I wonder about Ignorant people keep blundering out Opting for sun over thunder and clouds Wondering why they're coming for me now