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I wonder if today was the day that I passed away What would certain people in my life who went astray think or have to say? Like if we didn't communicate since we became estranged And the way it ended wasn't 'cause of me, although I changed How some people left it gave me resentment and pain But I learned to let go of it, that way peace is what I gained Focused on what's meant to be and look who I became Though at times it bubbles up from my subconscious to my brain It's a thought that I've been havin' lately People exiting my life has got me halfway crazy All I wanted was a conversation and some closure Now instead I'm observin' their behaviors and motives Talkin' friends who I really considered my brothers And girls I was dealin' with who revealed their colors Even family members who disassociated I act like it don't bother me, but how could they not know I hate it? People come, people go But it hits a little different when we used to be so close And I respect when people choose to go their separate ways But to simply phase me out and not even communicate Shit is messin' with me That's not the treatment I deserved When I care about a person, you can hear it in my words And through the times we shared, this is how they want to end it I promise that I'm fine, not really just pretendin', but I wonder if today was the day that I passed away What would certain people in my life who went astray think or have to say? Like if we didn't communicate since we became estranged And the way it ended wasn't 'cause of me, although I changed How some people left it gave me resentment and pain But I learned to let go of it, that way peace is what I gained Focused on what's meant to be and look who I became Though at times it bubbles up from my subconscious to my brain